It's tonight

I am a nervous wreck. I am glad I got my work done early today, cause I sure can’t do it now. I’ve been reading interview with comedians for the past two days, who all claim that their first open mics went really well. It was only after their first one that things got bad. I figure bombing tonight is not a good precedent, but as I understand it, people basically bomb consistently for their first few months/years, so I am in good company.

My problem is I can’t commit to any of my material. One minute I think my joke is hilarious, and the next I am imagining silence after the punchline. So I substitute it for another joke of mine, which is also great until I overthink it and decide to go with the first one. Back and forth like this over most of my jokes. Also, my order is bothering me.

Basically, I could write all day about the reasons that I am not ready to do this, but it wouldn’t help a damn bit. I just gotta jump in the deep end and see if my shit floats to the top.

That, by the way, is my new favorite metaphor.

The thing I’m most excited for is the response, positive or otherwise. I’ve heard these jokes so many times in my head that I’m wondering if I even understand humor anymore. It will be nice to hear what the audience thinks, no matter how rough it feels while I’m up there.

Ok, wish me luck. I’ll report on my findings tomorrow (or tonight, if you’re lucky, theoretical-person-who-reads-this-blog)